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| Having a bad day |
As you have probably read my three-part "Love Story" blog series, I guess I should start by saying that M and I have broken up. Out of respect to M and our relationship, I'll leave it at that. It's a sad time for sure, I mean, not only did I break up with a good guy, but I also lost my best friend. I would just like to say that I am doing okay and looking optimistically toward my future adventures, whatever they may be.
For the time being, I'm staying put in Hong Kong while I decide where I want to go next.
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| This strange place I call home: Hong Kong |
This is the exciting part.
Where to go next?!?!?
I don't think I will staying too long in Hong Kong. I do enjoy this city but I just cannot seem to align myself comfortably here. I find teaching English here less fulfilling than I would like and part of why I left New York City in the first place was to contribute and make a difference in the world. I just don't feel like I'm doing that in Hong Kong. Or perhaps the reason I left NYC was a little naive? I certainly hope not as I still have every intention to continue trying to help make this world a better place!
I've had this conversation with so many people about what it is about Hong Kong that I can't seem to find my place here, especially when I managed to make myself feel at home just about everywhere else. I really don't know what is it, except I know that, out of all the places I've ever lived or traveled to, I am the least happy here. I'm sorry, Hong Kong. It's not your fault and it's not mine, it just wasn't meant to be.
So back to the exciting part. WHERE TO GO NEXT???
I honestly have no idea, but all those extra pages in my passport are beckoning to be filled, just as my sense of adventure is screaming at me to get back out on the road.
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| So many passport pages to fill in! |
So far, I know that I will be taking a ME trip in the first week of October. Again, to where? I have no clue.
I also bought a flight home to New York City and San Francisco for the month of November. I'll spend my birthday with my glorious friends in NYC before heading home to San Francisco for Thanksgiving with my family. I'm really looking forward to November because it's been TWO YEARS since I've been back! TWO YEARS!
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| I've got a date with pumpkin pie in November! |
I hope that you can forgive me for the lack of interesting travel-related posts in the recent weeks. I promise I'll get back into it soon!
So, where do YOU suggest I go on my ME trip in October??? What about AFTER Hong Kong???
© Connie Hum 2011
I miss you and cannot wait to see you when you return!!! I debated putting that in all caps. It's in all caps in my heart.
ReplyDeleteHi Connie, I'm sorry to hear that things are not aligning well in HK. Hang in there. I wish you the best in finding what you feel is fulfilling for you.
ReplyDeleteTake good care,
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@puhhLEIGHze Thanks, Leigh! You know you're always ALL CAPS in my heart! Clear some space on your bed, I'm heading home! =)
ReplyDelete@GotPassport I'm slowly finding my way in Hong Kong, it's not as bad as it may seem. I'm not unhappy, just not as happy as I normally am. Thanks for the nice words, I'm positive something amazing is just around the corner!
Connie,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend. :( And I totally get you with the job & HK thing. I feel the same way about China. While I like having a home again, I can't say I feel at home here. And I also really don't feel like I'm making a difference in my job. Hopefully we'll both manage to move on to something better!
@Unbrave Girl Thanks Sally! Things are can only look up from here, right? =) Hang in there too!
ReplyDeleteWe all find our muse in different places. Do not be disheartened. Operation Next is in the works!
ReplyDeleteWell, I have had the opposite feelings for India. I have felt at home amongst the chaos and messy, non-linear movement. It is, aas it has always been, a humbling, learning experience.
But, things always change, so who knows about next year?
Check out KL. Love tha place. If you want to give India another glance, let me know.
In the interim, say hello to NYC for me. I'll see them in May.
Love your spirit girl... things happen in life, but I'm so glad that you are moving on. There might be uncertainties right now, but in time the light will shine and everything will be clear. Also, I have no clue where and how in the world did I come up with the above two lines. I think being in India I have a spiritual side to me that I have never explored. :-) Take care and looking forward to your travels and WWF. Also, I have been to HK a few times, a although it's a great and vibrant city and lots of shopping ;-) but I it's always been a tourist destination for me.
ReplyDeleteOh Connie I am so sorry to read about you and M. I am sure you both loved each other a lot and break ups are the worst. I also can't seem to find my place in big cities- I thought I would loose it completely one day in a gigantic mall in KL recently. I've know we don't know each other besides the occasional comment on your blog and twitter, but I'm in Chiang Mai at the moment and its peaceful. The mountains are lovely, the yoga is cheap, and well-the food. You know what I mean! We got a nice 2 bedroom/ 2 bath apartment for the next 3 months, and if you'd like you are more than welcome to come and spend some time here. Recharge the batteries, take some yoga, go on some hikes, whatever you'd like. You've got a place here. Mi casa-tu casa. Wherever you end up going on your quest for what you're looking for is exactly where you're meant to be. Keep searching- I know I still am. A big hug to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear things aren't too great right now, but it sounds like the worst is behind you. It seems like you like living it cities, so maybe there's another city in Asia where you'd feel more at ease and you could still teach English. As for your "me-trip," I'm not the best person to give advice because I don't know Asia, but I think it should be somewhere you can be decadent and do nothing but enjoy yourself!
ReplyDelete@rick zimmerman I'm so glad to hear that you're loving India. I miss it terribly! Malaysia is a possiblity, but I think I'd head to the beach instead of KL just for a change in scenery. =)
ReplyDelete@Raghav India is definitely a very spiritual place and sometimes it can seep into you without you even knowing it! HK really is great, but it's also a tough city to live in. I'm making the most of it though!
@Mica Thank you so much for the offer! I'm holding off on Thialand for the time being because I plan to go back and head to the Elephant Nature Park near Chiang Mai to volunteer for a few weeks. Excited about that! Will definitely crash at yours when I'm in town though, hahah! =)
@ramblinbess That's exactly what I'm looking for, just a place to indulge myself and relax! I'll let you know where I decide...
Oh lady! I'll be sending some good vibes your way. I think you should get some awesome time to yourself binging on sushi and culinary delights in Japan... but that is what I want to be doing. :P
ReplyDeleteOh wow! So much is different from when we met when you first got to Hong Kong. Sorry to hear about any bad in your life :( But glad to hear you are excited about the future, especially future travels!!! Do you think you want to continue trying to teach English or do something different somewhere? I think for your next destination you should look to do something crazy and let that lead you where you go next. Like look on house sitting sites or just like random things and find something crazy. You're always welcome in Wellington if you want to visit.
ReplyDeleteOh man, Connie. I'm sorry. :-(
ReplyDeleteHave you been to Cambodia? I don't know why, but I have a weird urge to go there. You could go check it out for me. :-)
@Erica Yum, I *do* love Japanese food, but I'm afraid Japan is a bit out of my price range at the moment. Soon, though! =)
ReplyDelete@Bobbi Lee Hitchon Yup, lots of changes, but not necessarily bad ones! Will definitely be looking for something completely different than what I'm doing now though...
@Miss Britt Oh, I'm gonna call you out on mot reading my blog! I was in Cambodia for about a month last year. There are actually several blogs from Cambodia... Haha, but it *was* lovely. You should definitely go!
sorry to hear about the splitsville. but hey, i always say everything happens for a reason. when i first read your post, i was going to ask if you've considered doing the english teaching thing in Japan! i see from your replies to comments that u have considered it... take heart! enjoy life... que sera sera! and oh, hope u get to have ramen with mindy_wong and my brother soon!
ReplyDelete@kewpie Thanks for the comment! And don't you worry, if ramen is involved, I'll be there in a snap! =)
ReplyDeleteMi futon es... always open to you. If you swing through Texas let me know.
ReplyDeleteI'm out of work but not down and out. I have friends, a good roommate, lots of spunk and ability so something will develop at some point and i hope sooner as opposed to later but it will happen.
Keep that chin up. Difficult to see but other things are coming your way, they do for each of us everyday but most of us don't see them because we're too focused on one thing or trying for a perfect element.
Glad to read notes from you again. Write, it's the best medicine.
I'm so sorry things didn't work out for you two, and that Hong Kong isn't coming together either. Well, the world really is your oyster, so at this point, you can go wherever you want. That's kind of exciting, no? Best of luck finding your bliss.
ReplyDelete@acceleratedstall.com Thanks! I'll let you know if I ever make my way to Texas! And don't worry, I'm finding that I have more and more to say (and write) about! More will definitely be coming!
ReplyDelete@Gray It certainly is exciting and I totally feel as if the world is just opening up to me. Too many choices, I'm not sure how I will choose! But yes, bliss is upon me again. Thank you!
connie! i've been way out of the blogging world for a few months and am bummed to come back & hear things didn't work out for you. again, i swear we are traveling twins - i recently had a painful split with a guy i fell in love with on the road too. was hoping to defy the odds of making a travel romance last...but alas...just another statistic ;) treasure the good times and don't ever regret anything.
ReplyDeleteOh, Connie.....I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm glad to hear that you are keeping positive and searching for your next adventure. Have you made your mind up about where to go next?
ReplyDeleteI've also had a bad couple of months - I developed panic attacks completely out of the blue and it was really difficult to get anything done! I went to Venice and it made me feel a MILLION times better....
Venice, perhaps? Take a girlfriend, stick your middle finger up to all men, and just have a girly seafood and cocktail adventure on a sinking island???
@traveling thy We totally have been having similar travel experiences. Maybe we should join forces and conquer the world? =) Sorry to hear of your recent split too but I know things are going to be all the better for us both! I'm already feeling better. Blogging more, getting our and enjoying life. That's what it's all about.
ReplyDelete@Mags I'm heading to Taiwan next Friday for a personal trip and then back to the States for a month but beyond that, everything is open. *Gasp* about your panic attacks. How scary! Everything better now? Hope so! Take care of yourself!
Awww sorry to hear about your breakup and that Hong Kong wasn't your cup of tea! Where were you living?
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